When was the last time you had nothing planned and didn’t do anything for a longer period of time? I’m talking a day, a couple of days, a week, 2-3 weeks or even longer?
After I had been released from the hospital and went home, a sudden emptiness overcame me but at the same time my head was about to explode. In only 3 months after removing the neck brace I can start with rehab and start doing things again. I found myself in a position I’ve never been in and it scared me.
Two days before my accident I had quit work and I wanted to take a two weeks vacation to think about what I want to do next. With the U18 season being done as well, I literally had nothing on my plate (so I thought) when I drove to Davos for vacation. Once I got there, I realized however how much I still had on my plate with unanswered mails and messages, so I was going to tackle that over the two weeks time of my skiing vacation… So I thought…
Once I was home from the hospital I felt completely trapped and my mind was going crazy. I started to think about everything and nothing, about my past with school, university, jobs, friends, hockey, travel… You name it, I’m pretty sure I thought about it. Once I was through with the past, I started thinking about the future and of course when thinking about the future when you’re just laying in bed without being able to do anything, I panicked. I had many sleepless nights, but it was the best thing that could have happened to me!
I finally had the time to digest everything in my life, digest my retirement, digest moving back to Switzerland, digest finishing my masters’ degree, you name it, I digested it all… Thanks to this injury I was able to do it, and I needed this big time (I didn’t even know before that I needed it!).
As for my future, this spine injury had been a blessing! At some point within the first two weeks of being home, my mind completely switched, and all thoughts became really clear and I started embracing it. For many months or even years I’ve had ideas in my head, however I never had the time to really think these ideas through and put them into words and actually make them happen.
Today, it’s been 2 months ago I fractured my spine and I’m so thankful for it. Although I still have a long way ahead of me, I am embracing every second of it and I can’t wait to see what the future holds! I will definately make sure to always take time out of a busy schedule for reflection.
PS: This morning I finally had four out of my five e-mail inboxes and all of my social media iboxes empty. 😀